Did I feel privileged? Oh NO! What the h/$# am I doing here? was my feeling. And I felt very privileged when I was on the ground, even if I had to do some paperwork for the CAA.

I agree with you Galdri 🙂 I wrote most of this when I was still training with a sort a naive approach maybe. Since then, I did too have some flights where I wish I was somewhere else, at least safe on the ground and not 6 feet under!
One in particular where I was the only one in the circuit no having realised that the wind had picked up like mad. It took me 3 attempts to land and I was getting angry at myself as I thought it was my fault. When I did land the tower said I had won a whisky one the house because they didn’t think I would land but didn’t want to tell me while I was trying….