BB, i cant say i fully know how you feel, but ive just sat and cried for half an hour at half 5 in the morning, just thinking about my nan, having spoke to a friend earlier when i went for a walk we discussed altzheimers (spelling?)
and how hard it is for the relations to cope, if im honest, im struggling with coping, i havnt managed to pluck up the courage to visit her, simply because its too hard to bare as she doesnt even know who i am anymore, she doesnt know who anyone is anymore but relives things from her past that are quite frankly worrying, the last time i visited her, she was saying oh no, those poor kids…i cant believe that happened to them, not one of her children knows what she is on about
i guess these kinds of things are down to will power at the end of it all, despite not being the one who is suffering from an illness, were still suffering, maybe not as much…but quite a bit
i think i need to try and sleep now..although its 6:05 in the morning….i could just go find something to do till i go out later, who knows
i was happy earlier, i dont know how my mood changed as i was running round laughing at 3am
just one of the many weird things that can happen
Scott
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